messy heart.

Today I am praying the declaration of John the Baptist. “He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30

This is so hard for me, and I think for a lot of us, because we have so much excitement about our potential. Sometimes that’s not even in a cocky way. I discovered just a few short years ago that I love to sing, and I’m not terrible at it. I love to write and have aspirations to use that love to be published someday. I have all of these little sparks of ideas— beginnings of dreams— that I am personally excited about. So to die to myself every day and say, “ok. whatever I have planned for myself is not as good as what God has for me,” is really hard. To the world, it even seems nonsensical. I mean, He’s the one who gave us our individual talents and skills. So I find it easy to justify seeking after my own dreams with the pretense that since the talents are His, my dreams are His as well. Don’t get me wrong, striving for excellence humbly does glorify God, and He does desire for us to develop and use our talents in a way that serves others and Honors Him, but giving up the reins can be really painful sometimes. So my prayer for myself this morning is that I will allow Him to replace the filth in me with the Perfect Love that is in Him. When I am full of the Holy Spirit, my dreams will be oriented towards loving others, and that is much better than exalting myself.

With all of the technology and social media available to us today, it is easier than ever to preach the gospel of ourselves. I want to use it to make Jesus Christ known instead.